Y’all, I need to have a “keeping it real” type moment with you today.
You see, for the past few weeks my stomach has been in knots, I’m just been a mess. If you’re a regular reader you know that I’m getting ready to move to another state with my family. What you may not know is that we are also taking a family vacation for over a week between then and now-with no internet, which while it sounds relaxing has been stressful as anything as someone who blogs as a “job!”
I have been busting my bootie to try and prepare posts to publish while I’m on vacation, while we’re moving, trying to fulfill obligation I’ve made for writing on other websites, working with brands…I’ve basically been over-thinking and over-doing everything and driving myself crazy.
Over the past few weeks I’ve said “no” when my two year old has asked me to go for a walk…there haven’t been silly dance parties with my 5 and 7 year olds…I’ve been distracted when my husband is talking to me about my day. I’m ashamed of that. I really am. And I’m ready to change it.
I finally just realized that I can be about certain that none of my readers cares if I don’t have my normal 5 posts a week over the next few weeks. You know how sometimes you put pressure on yourself and no one else really cares or notices? Well I’m super good at that, and it’s what I’ve been putting on myself lately-kinda like the high school “dress like the cool kids” complex of blogging I guess.
Anyways, all this to tell you that I’m going to give myself a break for a while. There will be posts but I don’t know how many a week-some weeks may be like normal, some maybe only one or two. I’ve actually written quite a few so I’m fairly confident that had I not said anything no one would have noticed anything amiss. But I wanted to share this with you because I’m willing to bet I’m not the only one who does this in life.
I’m giving myself permission to play it by ear which is NOT my way! I’m a planner and a worrier by nature. So I’m going to make myself relax, live in the moment, enjoy these last couple of weeks in North Carolina with our friends, enjoy my backyard pool before we relocate to our urban townhouse, take walks with my little guy and dance with the big boys…disconnect and enjoy my husband’s rare time off work and the vacation we’ve worked so hard to go on.
Thanks for letting me share my heart with you all. I don’t write like this often but I really needed to today, and just know that I appreciate each and every one of you that stops by and takes time out of your busy lives to visit my little home on the web. So if I don’t answer your comments or reply on Facebook over the next few weeks it’s not that I don’t love and appreciate every single one-it’s just slowing it down.